Fake...?

Fakeness is what I have become
But I don't know if I am fake or not.
I am just a tool for this other.
Who is it inside?
why is it not
me?
Why now?
Why does it compel me
To do this?
I can't be anything.
I feel so fake,
And I try to not believe in
What people say,
But its hard
when you dont know if you are.